I just want
to watch Harry Potter with you and cuddle till we fall asleep.
I’ve had my blog since August 2008.
haha sweet.
Imagine that though?
like that would be so fucking crazy if that’s how everything worked out.
It’s 1:05 Pm
Tomorrow is going to be so hard.
I just honestly wish you made a different choice.
So……recently i’ve been cutting, I really don’t think I should be posting this on tumblr, I’m not looking for attention what so ever, I just am really confused about my life right now. I have no idea why I’m doing it, but its been happening so much. I’ll probably get all kind of anon hate for this or go kill yourself already or stop seeking attention, or I care so much about you don’t do that. Honestly, recently, its just been a stress reliever. I’m not trying to kill myself or anything, I’m just relieving stress, I’ve never had such a clear head before when it comes to cutting in the past. This is just my life recently and I’m okay with it.
I’ve kinda just given up
If you couldn’t tell by the tags, this is super personal
How could I ever even attempt to compete with her.
fml.
So my grandmother is buying me a phone for birthday/christmas.
I originally told her I wanted an iphone 4s, which she was going to get me, then i changed my mind and now I want a thunderbolt. As far as i know she’s gonna get it for me, but i’ve been texting her trying to convince her to like meet me at the store today so i can pick it out and like pick out the case and shit, and she told me she’s meeting my mom at the mall later? But like some of the main reasons I wanna go with her:
- I can get a deal from the guy cause he’s good friends with my stepdad.
- I can pick out the free case, the guy will give me.
- I need a new phone asap cause my phone is broken, and I don’t want her to like wait till Christmas eve or something and give it to me like wrapped up and shit.
- That^ thus not being able to transfer all my shit from my current phone to the new one until like the 26ish or something.
- I just want a new phone now.
I’m hoping I don’t sound like a spoiled brat, I’ve had my enV3 for two years now, it shuts off all the time, only works on speaker phone, has been dropped millions of times, and freezes, I just want a new phone.
The only people I really have in my life right now that actually care enough about me.
- Summer
- Kellsie
- Chantel
- Maybe Dylan
- & Maybe Erik.
Thats about it. and people are gonna comment on this and be like I care about you. BULLFUCKINGSHIT. if you cared about me at all you might actually try and talk to me. Don’t sit here and say that you are here for me when you are not, you only care to say shit to me when you know something is wrong. I try so hard to keep people in my life while trying to make my life a little stable.
- Emily
- Nicole
- Sheila
- Dylan
- Shawna
- Shannon
- Mike.
You all say that you are there for me, you care about me, “we should hang out, i just gotta figure out my schedule” bull fucking shit. If i wanna see anyone aside from Kellsie or Summer, I have to make the plans because no one actually wants to see me unless there is no one better. Fuck all this bullshit.
I need:
- My bestfriend.
- Weed.
- Our peacoats.
- Ke$ha.
- My car.
- Cigarettes.
All together.
I miss her so much.
